from onester:

"i had a dream.
it's a deja vu dream.
about a series of things happenings and key characters...
it's hilariously put.
but it's about the end of days.
and it's put on a timeline along the pathway like the ones at ang mo kio
this time round...more people involved.
and good side has quirky characters helping...but it seems we're winning.

weird.

and when i snapped out of it...my heart was beating damn hard."

---

two nights ago,

when i could actually sleep at night,

the world decided to shiver. again.

yeah....

great things happen when you're least aware, huh?


listen to ja rule.

my dreams as of late have been turbulent roller coaster rides that i choose not to remember them. sure, those fragments might be lingering around...but by tomorrow i'm sure they'll be gone. they better be.

currently listening to: june of 44 - anahata cd.

there have been dreams about babies. baby boys in particular. and baby mikah made me really happy and sad. sad because he was just an illusion painted at the back of my mind. possible to achieve but it will be a very difficult journey with many rickety bridges to balance and cross over.

and then i was pregnant. and dm rubbed my tummy like she knew. it was amazing. the touch of a semi stranger. or frenger as the "cool" kids would say it. and they would understand what i mean by that.

how long does it take for anyone to learn how to walk? without stilts. without support. without anyone to hold your hand and say yeah you can do it. everyone is talking about time. how long? how fast? when?

realise with real eyes.

music would naturally be tortoise. le poseur?

non. saw them 7 years ago and it's superstitious to not listen to a band/artiste 24 hours before they perform or something bad will happen. i don't believe it yet somehow i don't practice it. ho hum.

thanks a lot

dear mr insomnia,


thank you for the impromptu visit. you're looking great and it's amazing how you never seem to age a single bit. what is your secret? i would love to know and would appreciate you telling me. the lights are much brighter and it's nice to hear more than one voice this time. the old voice was getting boring and he's always talking about the same stuff like he was a warped record or something. focus has not reduced but stretched into tangents. i like that and i look like hell. my spine is still shivering and my fingers are still trembling. perhaps you could fix that and make it worse? yes? that would be awesome. anticipating tonight's date.



love hugs kisses and depleted solutions,

nadia. xox.

: black cat #13 collaborated wtih xbxrx for a 6:46min track and it was awesome. the video was in pink and white vertical stripes and the kids were just outlined in black markers. fucking rule. : if only i could remember how the track went. damn me for making up music in my head again.

: was made to draw a chinese opera mask and i got it right but i had trouble drawing it in 3-d form. managed to get help from sister and she showed me a technique akin to paper tooling or whatever. green mask painted red. :

: stuck at the gas station waiting for change and i ended up with ice cream cones and whipped cream. so nice.:



amazing what happens in five hours.

the bc#13/etc dream was a sign.

spastic love for jfk and company. raar.

:of shoes and kitchens and dress alterations.:

:sonic youth in the soundtrack as i stepped out of the house. a haunted wooden house by the edge of the cliff.:

i wish it would rain.

listen to catpower.

: was at some zine and art fair and saetia was there giving out free band posters and stickers and flyers. and i managed to get a poster for myself. at the rest of the fair, i was stuck with a korean girl who was fashion crazy and into german gourmet food. :

: later on i ended up in an australian international school and one of the kids asked me if i had watched the movie about the singaporean girl who made a movie of herself having sex with more than 200 guys or something. i said no i didn't see it because i was broke at the time. :

other nights saw me dreaming of shoes and haircuts.

listen to plaid.