: so i went to see this really awesome band and i had the band tshirt but it was yellow and i did not really like it but was proud that i had it anyway and i was all geared up in 1970s sportswear. tucked in tshirt, shorts with stripes at the sides and knee high socks and all... and the show was in a casino and the band decided to do an acoustic set and when i went out to get some air, i met my colleagues from work. what an absolute downer!!! :

it's a feelgood playlist.
oh yes.

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them ants were crawling all over my left thigh and twice a greyish-white kitten stood in the corner of my room. and its tail brushed against my left calf. tiny white circles encompassing and pink streaks flashing and the stairs moved back and forth. like it was yesterday.
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: i found myself enrolled in a police academy but there was no physical training. and i only had to be there once a week and do lots of written quizzes and write essays and listen to boring lectures of road safety. what gives? :

" easy come easy go.
easy lucky easy blow.
cut my finger you will see.
the happiness in all of me. "

music from before and after has never been better.
thanking all those responsible.
yes you know who you are.

xox

devotion II

be blinded not by fairy lights
and saccharine sweets on glittering trays.
but by your constant faith and gratitude which shines the brightest
on the darkest of days.

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merry eid mubarak 1431.

xox

take down your art

why the need to display it
why the need to justify every single word and action
why make the effort
why go the distance
why bother to try to prove

because it was never yours in the first place.

p.s. the fine line between a scrapbook and book of scraps.

listen to german metal.

suffocate

i have been dreaming of people and places with moments that do not fit.
a collage of many jigsaw puzzles with missing pieces and duplicates.
sometimes i do not want the dreams to end.
but that is just how it is.
one never knows what the ending is.

continuously continuing

there is tranquility in my turbulence.
treacherous tragedies
tremendously
triumphed by tenacity.

oh word play is fun.
play = fun?
non?

listening to indiedancegaragesurfrock bands from this decade and millenium.

devotion

to honor and uphold
to abstain and refrain
to reflect and ponder
to conserve and nurture
to struggle to strive to sacrifice

to be ever chaste. to be ever silent.

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Ramadhan Mubarak. Ramadhan Kareem.

xox

been dreaming of incidents of the following day.
thrice this week.
nothing horrendous or frightening or strange.
just stuff of what would happen at work and at social events.
premonitions in dream state?
or just my mind preparing, preparing, preparing,
as always.

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they say : go to the light at the end of the tunnel.
i say : observe the intricacies of the darkness,
and appreciate that all five senses are still in function.

listen to the carpenters.