//if only
you could predict
foresee
and foretell
and had it all fuckin' prophesied.
if only.//
but am i damn glad i never boarded your plane.
and relied on limited footwear.
exploit yourself all the way.
but typically, only after.
---
if only...
just consumed 'the punk singer'.
now listening to sauna youth.
Thursday, January 02, 2014
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
the last of 2013 was
: being driven to school (possibly high school but it wasn't the school i went to. the uniform resembled that of st margaret's but it was co-ed?) and did not have my notes in order. upon arrival at pick-up-point, i then noticed the 2 most important files i needed next to me. a classmate then asked how i commuted, i said my dad drove me only to realize that it couldn't be possible... :
some recent course-related dreams (in chronological order) :
: (1) went for a walk with a tutor and passed by a flea market selling strange antiquities and vintage trinkets. detoured from the walk and went to visit a friend's cafe instead. (2) saw myself seated in a seminar and saw another tutor seated not too far away and quickly made my exit. (3) attended the lecture of tutor in (1) and saved some seats for my course mates but they opted to sit elsewhere. (4) hung out with tutor in (2) and discussed the history of greenday. the band. (5) went back to supposedly volunteer and help out with the new candidates and saw they had to watch a video during orientation which i didn't. and i was glad i didn't have to and they were then made to do some really trivial group task. and again i was glad i didn't have to. quickly collected my luggage and left.:
there is no logical explanation to those last 5 dreams but merely the fact that my mind was absolutely occupied with nothing else but surviving the course. perhaps to ace it was stretching my goals a little too high but hey, it is okay to have ambition and to aim for the best. yes, disappointment for not achieving what i aimed but no regrets for embarking on such a battle and getting through it.
as with all other battles.
and still fighting some.
2013 - you have been challenging from day 1 and while most hope for a better year, i can't even begin to wonder what 'better' really is.
words go forwards and back. type. backspace. type. delete. type. pause.
---
there is a reason.
there is a purpose.
there is a cause.
nobody might care. but so what, eh? :)
// the new year was greeted with the consumption of 'sound city'. a good documentary to watch. try to ignore the main marketing campaign behind it all but hey, be inspired. go inspire. go. //
: being driven to school (possibly high school but it wasn't the school i went to. the uniform resembled that of st margaret's but it was co-ed?) and did not have my notes in order. upon arrival at pick-up-point, i then noticed the 2 most important files i needed next to me. a classmate then asked how i commuted, i said my dad drove me only to realize that it couldn't be possible... :
some recent course-related dreams (in chronological order) :
: (1) went for a walk with a tutor and passed by a flea market selling strange antiquities and vintage trinkets. detoured from the walk and went to visit a friend's cafe instead. (2) saw myself seated in a seminar and saw another tutor seated not too far away and quickly made my exit. (3) attended the lecture of tutor in (1) and saved some seats for my course mates but they opted to sit elsewhere. (4) hung out with tutor in (2) and discussed the history of greenday. the band. (5) went back to supposedly volunteer and help out with the new candidates and saw they had to watch a video during orientation which i didn't. and i was glad i didn't have to and they were then made to do some really trivial group task. and again i was glad i didn't have to. quickly collected my luggage and left.:
there is no logical explanation to those last 5 dreams but merely the fact that my mind was absolutely occupied with nothing else but surviving the course. perhaps to ace it was stretching my goals a little too high but hey, it is okay to have ambition and to aim for the best. yes, disappointment for not achieving what i aimed but no regrets for embarking on such a battle and getting through it.
as with all other battles.
and still fighting some.
2013 - you have been challenging from day 1 and while most hope for a better year, i can't even begin to wonder what 'better' really is.
words go forwards and back. type. backspace. type. delete. type. pause.
---
there is a reason.
there is a purpose.
there is a cause.
nobody might care. but so what, eh? :)
// the new year was greeted with the consumption of 'sound city'. a good documentary to watch. try to ignore the main marketing campaign behind it all but hey, be inspired. go inspire. go. //
Friday, December 20, 2013
"never neglect to reflect"
so.
back on the boat and rockin' these waves i abandoned.
when time seemed like a whirlwind, it is now standing still and here i am at the next crossroad.
the next open chapter.
the next next.
two things i did for me this year:
1. trinity guildhall drama exam
2. cambridge celta - done at british council (full time 4 weeks. 2511-201213.)
the question is not why or what.
the question is swimming in a cloud of memories wondering if it should ever be answered
or even be questioned at all.
and so.
rewind and fast forward?
no i will not.
much to share and much to say.
but really and most importantly,
all one ever needs to do is:
listen.
\m/
back on the boat and rockin' these waves i abandoned.
when time seemed like a whirlwind, it is now standing still and here i am at the next crossroad.
the next open chapter.
the next next.
two things i did for me this year:
1. trinity guildhall drama exam
2. cambridge celta - done at british council (full time 4 weeks. 2511-201213.)
the question is not why or what.
the question is swimming in a cloud of memories wondering if it should ever be answered
or even be questioned at all.
and so.
rewind and fast forward?
no i will not.
much to share and much to say.
but really and most importantly,
all one ever needs to do is:
listen.
\m/
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
modern world.
finally. after much procastinatination, i am updating...PLUS i am updating from my phone. wow. first world achievement...
last last night:
a masseuse attended to me and started screaming and shouting, claiming there was something alive in my left rib sent from a person in my past.
last night:
a lot of swimming was involved.
of course there was more to it and as usual, the more you try to remember, the more you don't.
i miss swimming. current state of health does not allow it and neither does the current weather. boo.
been listening to blue friend.
Saturday, April 06, 2013
some nights ago,
: there was a varsity challenge that seemed more battle royal-esque than anything. :
: attended a radiohead concert and was able to "chill" with mr yorke after. :
and last night,
: (i) was supposed to go for piano lessons but there were 4 people at 4 pianos learning to play in the same room. all playing different songs and created the worst racket i've ever heard and of course, instantly turned me off. (ii) spoke to some random stranger on skype and he insisted i meet him which i didn't and naturally he got furious but what did i care. i ended up at tanglin mall which looked like a weird mall from the 1970s. goodness knows what i was doing there. :
following up the previous post, the americans is not too bad a tv show as well. i quite like it. most notably, game of thrones is back and the cast looked like they aged reasonably. not complaining, no. a lot of expectations for their delivery of narrative to be better or just as good as the last two seasons.
on the cinema front, oz the great and powerful was entertaining but i still preferred the judy garland version.
last weekend was remarkable especially the trip to the singapore philatelic museum and the artscience museum on the same day. the former is exhibiting star wars stamps & memorabilia and the latter is exhibiting 'art of the brick by nathan sawaya' (lego madness!) both are running til may and you should go if you can.
revisiting panic! at the disco (initially meant to be a joke) and also the ost of the crow.
*special shoutout to my husband for being a radically awesome person. hearts and arrows.*
: there was a varsity challenge that seemed more battle royal-esque than anything. :
: attended a radiohead concert and was able to "chill" with mr yorke after. :
and last night,
: (i) was supposed to go for piano lessons but there were 4 people at 4 pianos learning to play in the same room. all playing different songs and created the worst racket i've ever heard and of course, instantly turned me off. (ii) spoke to some random stranger on skype and he insisted i meet him which i didn't and naturally he got furious but what did i care. i ended up at tanglin mall which looked like a weird mall from the 1970s. goodness knows what i was doing there. :
following up the previous post, the americans is not too bad a tv show as well. i quite like it. most notably, game of thrones is back and the cast looked like they aged reasonably. not complaining, no. a lot of expectations for their delivery of narrative to be better or just as good as the last two seasons.
on the cinema front, oz the great and powerful was entertaining but i still preferred the judy garland version.
last weekend was remarkable especially the trip to the singapore philatelic museum and the artscience museum on the same day. the former is exhibiting star wars stamps & memorabilia and the latter is exhibiting 'art of the brick by nathan sawaya' (lego madness!) both are running til may and you should go if you can.
revisiting panic! at the disco (initially meant to be a joke) and also the ost of the crow.
*special shoutout to my husband for being a radically awesome person. hearts and arrows.*
Friday, March 01, 2013
a first for
everything.
when the routine is no longer fixed by a structure or hanging onto a scaffold.
when happiness overrides bliss and constantly overriding contentment.
when the true meaning of meaning is a work in progress.
make what you will.
-
some nights ago :
: never would i think the elevator dream would recur. the one where i step into a glass elevator and it shoots up to the top floor and catapults out of the building and onto a railway-line-ish track and transports me to another building. only this time around, i was not alone and i had my husband by my side as my trusted accomplice. *tag team for life and after* roar! :
last night :
: i almost got injected but was woken up. went scouting for new places to swim. one of them was at a wet market in johor, malaysia. and the pool was on the roof. supposed to go skateboarding but bailed. the fact that the ramps were in a tennis court could be a factor why i was hesitant to partake.:
february - the month of birthdays - came and went.
it sure presented itself in the most unpredictable manner. ever.
not my most preferred choice but sometimes a knot is tied harder than how it seems.
gryswtr dot blogspot dot com is already eleven.
and if time permits, greysweater/gryswtr will turn 14 in june.
wow.
be fuelled by broccoli (the vegetable), adventure time/the following (the tv shows) and eight tracks. about time i posted a new mix.
when the routine is no longer fixed by a structure or hanging onto a scaffold.
when happiness overrides bliss and constantly overriding contentment.
when the true meaning of meaning is a work in progress.
make what you will.
-
some nights ago :
: never would i think the elevator dream would recur. the one where i step into a glass elevator and it shoots up to the top floor and catapults out of the building and onto a railway-line-ish track and transports me to another building. only this time around, i was not alone and i had my husband by my side as my trusted accomplice. *tag team for life and after* roar! :
last night :
: i almost got injected but was woken up. went scouting for new places to swim. one of them was at a wet market in johor, malaysia. and the pool was on the roof. supposed to go skateboarding but bailed. the fact that the ramps were in a tennis court could be a factor why i was hesitant to partake.:
february - the month of birthdays - came and went.
it sure presented itself in the most unpredictable manner. ever.
not my most preferred choice but sometimes a knot is tied harder than how it seems.
gryswtr dot blogspot dot com is already eleven.
and if time permits, greysweater/gryswtr will turn 14 in june.
wow.
be fuelled by broccoli (the vegetable), adventure time/the following (the tv shows) and eight tracks. about time i posted a new mix.
Saturday, October 06, 2012
last last night.
: (a) was on some outing with a few drama club teachers and one of them wanted to give me her brand new-never worn rockabilly looking steve mcqueen peep-toe platform wedges. they looked kinda cute but alas, too many sizes too big. (yes, i know it's supposed to be alexander mcqueen but that's what the labels read as. *shrugs* (b) separate outing and it felt like i was at a marine/maritime museum and i purchased far too much chocolate and a stuffed polar bear. (c) got a new pair of glasses with really good lenses (but not the HD kind but still just as good) and vision was way more clearer but damn, the nose pads were really thick and hurt a lot: :
last night:
: (a) a text message and a phonecall from my american buddhist friend. (b) some christian missionaries were in the neighbourhood and they knocked my door like it was their sworn enemy and if they continued any further, it would have probably exploded. (not that my door is built with explosives but anyways...) when i finally got around to letting them in, they morped into awkward teenage girls and i insisted they sat on my sofa before uttering a word and i proceeded to sabotage them by destroying their horrible looking footwear. (c) i was supposed to watch a baseball game with the british royal family but got bored and left halfway. :
did i ever mention that the avocado is the best fruit ever?
ever.
: (a) was on some outing with a few drama club teachers and one of them wanted to give me her brand new-never worn rockabilly looking steve mcqueen peep-toe platform wedges. they looked kinda cute but alas, too many sizes too big. (yes, i know it's supposed to be alexander mcqueen but that's what the labels read as. *shrugs* (b) separate outing and it felt like i was at a marine/maritime museum and i purchased far too much chocolate and a stuffed polar bear. (c) got a new pair of glasses with really good lenses (but not the HD kind but still just as good) and vision was way more clearer but damn, the nose pads were really thick and hurt a lot: :
last night:
: (a) a text message and a phonecall from my american buddhist friend. (b) some christian missionaries were in the neighbourhood and they knocked my door like it was their sworn enemy and if they continued any further, it would have probably exploded. (not that my door is built with explosives but anyways...) when i finally got around to letting them in, they morped into awkward teenage girls and i insisted they sat on my sofa before uttering a word and i proceeded to sabotage them by destroying their horrible looking footwear. (c) i was supposed to watch a baseball game with the british royal family but got bored and left halfway. :
did i ever mention that the avocado is the best fruit ever?
ever.