building my army.
this is my armour.
my own battle.
my own war.
i will never give up.
i will never give in.
recite. recite. recite.
peace be with you…
can i please be with you…Lord…
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Friday, July 30, 2004
: choice of public transportation these days seems to be the bus. :
: a former lecturer gave me a choice between an array of watches and a few barbie dolls. none of the watches were nice. so i took the "underwater" barbie. it looked kinda freaky and the doll's makeup was rather smudgy. later on, said lecturer told me to take any watch at all and i had a look at the selection of the cuff watches but felt they were getting too cliched. :
the cold morning calls for the vida blue.
: a former lecturer gave me a choice between an array of watches and a few barbie dolls. none of the watches were nice. so i took the "underwater" barbie. it looked kinda freaky and the doll's makeup was rather smudgy. later on, said lecturer told me to take any watch at all and i had a look at the selection of the cuff watches but felt they were getting too cliched. :
the cold morning calls for the vida blue.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
: was in this place which was half perth half singapore (singapore in the late 80’s). i was in town in ‘perth’ and waiting for the rainbow cat. the town was like a small courtyard and it was winter and i was freezing but i wanted to wait outside instead of sitting in the dodgy pubs. he finally arrived and we boarded a double decker bus and went back home to ‘singapore’. there was this chinese couple in the bus who offered us some squid ball but i wasn’t really into it so i said no. rainbow cat was hungry so he took the plastic from the couple and upon reaching home, he found a pack of cigarettes hidden between the food. :
: back in ‘perth’ and wandering around a suburb with big sister. there were two things i was fascinated with. one was a clinic for animal counselling. the other was kinda like a museum that focused on prehistoric artefacts. i went to the clinic and they asked me if i could volunteer and i said ‘sure if i have the time’. but the lady then kept calling me and asking me to come in but it was always during a bad moment. :
: was at the mortuary looking at some dead body when suddenly the body resurrected and he started singing some oldies song which i couldn’t decipher. he then asked for a pair of headphones and a transistor radio. :
there were more to the dreams above but they were all fragmented and it is quite a task to write them in proper sentences. i could use phrases but i am not really in the mood and especially at this time of the day and waking up on the wrong side of the bed.
been listening to the carpenters.
: back in ‘perth’ and wandering around a suburb with big sister. there were two things i was fascinated with. one was a clinic for animal counselling. the other was kinda like a museum that focused on prehistoric artefacts. i went to the clinic and they asked me if i could volunteer and i said ‘sure if i have the time’. but the lady then kept calling me and asking me to come in but it was always during a bad moment. :
: was at the mortuary looking at some dead body when suddenly the body resurrected and he started singing some oldies song which i couldn’t decipher. he then asked for a pair of headphones and a transistor radio. :
there were more to the dreams above but they were all fragmented and it is quite a task to write them in proper sentences. i could use phrases but i am not really in the mood and especially at this time of the day and waking up on the wrong side of the bed.
been listening to the carpenters.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
in chronological order. uh huh.
: (i) stuck in a reality show and i was forced to change my bedroom curtains to green ones and that got me extremely frustrated. :
: (ii) agreed to meet some classmates from university in an unknown mall in malaysia. (definitely not in KL) i was dropped at the shop houses by the side of the mall and there were these strange looking kids from one of the private schools nearby and they were smoking and staring at me head to toe. pretended not to look and fastened my pace. met the kids at the fountain in the mall and supposed to take photos but i ran out of film.
: (iii - a) late evening. just after sunset. went back to the old place at west coast drive, singapore. i stood by the sidewalk waiting for a cab. the roads were littered with pepsi cans and junk. like it was new year's day and there had been a huge celebration the night before and no one cleared it up. finally hailed a cab and the driver asked where i wanted to go and i said 'far east plaza' and apparently he was involved in some fight and he was unable to bring me to said destination but he could drop me off somewhere close and i said it was fine. :
: (iii - b) got off at ck tang and the entire place was deserted. (think 28 days later) next thing i knew i was transported to a suburban area and will smith (yeah, that fresh prince dude) was waiting for me. i said hello. he demanded a hug. i said "no, no i can't hug you. i'm married." and he said "awww noooo....we gotta hug..." and i was like "no no, don't hug me." but he hugged me anyway and reassured me everything was fine and brought me to an r&b party in i don't know whose house and tlc were there and some act called little perfect. :
then i was awakened by lulu the cat.
right. that was a whole lot of "funny" dreams. not funny-ha ha, by the way.
cough has receded.
heart hasn't.
ho-hum.
: (i) stuck in a reality show and i was forced to change my bedroom curtains to green ones and that got me extremely frustrated. :
: (ii) agreed to meet some classmates from university in an unknown mall in malaysia. (definitely not in KL) i was dropped at the shop houses by the side of the mall and there were these strange looking kids from one of the private schools nearby and they were smoking and staring at me head to toe. pretended not to look and fastened my pace. met the kids at the fountain in the mall and supposed to take photos but i ran out of film.
: (iii - a) late evening. just after sunset. went back to the old place at west coast drive, singapore. i stood by the sidewalk waiting for a cab. the roads were littered with pepsi cans and junk. like it was new year's day and there had been a huge celebration the night before and no one cleared it up. finally hailed a cab and the driver asked where i wanted to go and i said 'far east plaza' and apparently he was involved in some fight and he was unable to bring me to said destination but he could drop me off somewhere close and i said it was fine. :
: (iii - b) got off at ck tang and the entire place was deserted. (think 28 days later) next thing i knew i was transported to a suburban area and will smith (yeah, that fresh prince dude) was waiting for me. i said hello. he demanded a hug. i said "no, no i can't hug you. i'm married." and he said "awww noooo....we gotta hug..." and i was like "no no, don't hug me." but he hugged me anyway and reassured me everything was fine and brought me to an r&b party in i don't know whose house and tlc were there and some act called little perfect. :
then i was awakened by lulu the cat.
right. that was a whole lot of "funny" dreams. not funny-ha ha, by the way.
cough has receded.
heart hasn't.
ho-hum.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
it is not tonsilitis.
but apparently my throat is bad and this is worse than having the flu.
: i dreamt of mr siva. :
i've never even met him let alone know how he looks like and it's his funeral today.
: then i dreamt of being at the sunday markets at shah alam. i bought cold barley drinks that resembled fresh coconut juice in beer glasses. :
coconuts. coincidence #76304. velvetsoulsuicides talked about coconuts and this is after i woke up.
: then i dreamt of being stuck in a disney contest and participants had to go through a strange staircase where the floor level was higher when you went down. someone opened a door and it led to a strange parking lot. my team was then instructed to look for ingredients to a secret brownie recipe. *lame*. sometime before the contest, i bumped into a primary school classmate and i wanted to talk to her but she shrugged me off. :
that suddenly got me thinking of her.
old classmates. old friends.
what we have is the past.
not the present and perhaps, not the future.
i think it was best she shrugged me off.
i would've done the same.
"we go a long way back" does not mean anything to me.
quantity versus quality.
please pass me the latter.
cough cough. onomatopoeia.
dear throat, you hurt really bad.
but not as bad as my heart. (emo cheese!)
but apparently my throat is bad and this is worse than having the flu.
: i dreamt of mr siva. :
i've never even met him let alone know how he looks like and it's his funeral today.
: then i dreamt of being at the sunday markets at shah alam. i bought cold barley drinks that resembled fresh coconut juice in beer glasses. :
coconuts. coincidence #76304. velvetsoulsuicides talked about coconuts and this is after i woke up.
: then i dreamt of being stuck in a disney contest and participants had to go through a strange staircase where the floor level was higher when you went down. someone opened a door and it led to a strange parking lot. my team was then instructed to look for ingredients to a secret brownie recipe. *lame*. sometime before the contest, i bumped into a primary school classmate and i wanted to talk to her but she shrugged me off. :
that suddenly got me thinking of her.
old classmates. old friends.
what we have is the past.
not the present and perhaps, not the future.
i think it was best she shrugged me off.
i would've done the same.
"we go a long way back" does not mean anything to me.
quantity versus quality.
please pass me the latter.
cough cough. onomatopoeia.
dear throat, you hurt really bad.
but not as bad as my heart. (emo cheese!)
