please. enough of airports and airplanes and shoes.
this is getting too boring to the point of frustration.
i do not need this. stop rubbing it in.
i want a new sandman. or none at all.
okay? good. register.

---

"dont look in the mirror...
don't like what i see staring back at me..."

music : the sounds of 1992
(reference to the year though i think 'the sounds of 1992' would make a good band name! nah, maybe not.)

trip of 24.01.04/25.01.04
location shall not be disclosed.
--->
dancing with hands in the air in the middle of the road.
"ter-ne-nung...ter-ne-nung...ter-ne-nung..."
was what she heard. was what they said.
<---

it was nice. and happy.
it is good to smile.
for it has been rather empty as of late.

and things are not as easy as they seem.

: and my life goes reverse. the colours still the same. faces and numbers. not changing. ever so static. :
i do not miss them. never had i any intention to turn back time. no i do not.

constant state of distraction and contemplation.
not very healthy but i try.

dancing to electroclash-synthpop/rock.

i have had enough of buses and trains and other modes of transportation appearing in my subconscious-life. and so i shall not narrate them. instead, here is a picture that has made my week. a muppet saetia avatar.


*credits to whoever did this. (from the cumwhack forum)

what could be better than screamo and sesame street combined?
"can you tell me how to get...how to get to screamo street....raaaaaaaaaaa!!!"

afraid of stairs is nice jangly pop. i like.

: was sent to australia for a strange exchange programme. upon arrival at the airport, the porters were malaysian and rather friendly for my liking and the state was under military rule which favoured the american system. (quite odd). a lecturer sent me on an errand to buy chewing gum. the three flavours available were lemon mint, strawberry and white crysanthemum. he was quite surprised they were under wrigley's. anyways, long queue at the pharmacy where i purchased said gum and while waiting i came across a can of miss e. and they were selling it for AU$6.06. (i reckon the number is related to my thoughts of kid 606 before slumber). while walking back, the streets reminisced of ancient china and there were lots of stalls where people could alter their clothes and the workers were using old school sewing machines.

next.

at mother's-mother's house. the room she let me sleep in had a very very old sewing machine with rust pedals but she told the maid to take it away and replace it with a bare desk instead. :

trip of 13.01.2004 - 2100hrs
klia express. towards the airport.
--->
the lights from the traffic looked stretched and everything was swaying.
and i heard the prayer call.
followed by laughter not long later.
<---

please elevate your mentality.

in no particular order
: (i) had to undergo an operation where my ribs had to be removed. older sister was going through a surgery as well but i did not have time to visit her.

(ii - 01.) was at jalan maarof, bangsar - kuala lumpur with mother. went to visit mother's friend who was a bit depressed but her four children were okay. (ii - 02.) met up with four dudes all dressed in black tshirts and trackers. we were making a short film. the content i cannot remember. (ii - 03.) was playing with my smurfette figurine and my two sisters invited me for a walk and we went to a toymaker's house. there were lots of fancy sewing machines. silver and gold they were. and loads of customised toys and hand puppets and hand made cards with retro pictures. at the corner of the ceiling, i spotted a tiny shelf that held a very modern laptop and a spy camera. the toymaker was a cool chinese dude and he reminded me of the dude in 'babes in toyland'. (that film with keanu reeves and a very young drew barrymore and mr miyagi-karate kid as the toymaker). (iii - 04.) big sister wanted to hook up with an old friend from grade school but apparently she passed away the night before. tragic.

(iii) trying to take pictures of my spiderman figurine with little sister's digital camera but it didn't work out.

(iv) saw a mama cat with her four kitties. very very cute. :

trip of 12.01.2004 - 2200hrs
was listening to add n to x
--->
stretched elastic hands grew out of my postcards from the postcard door and they were about to embrace me. little sister was doing a funny dance and so was i. and lulu looked at me rather strangely.
<---

i feel giddy.
shall listen to judy and mary now.

: a friend of a friend was gonna get married to prince william. the prince then said the reason he was marrying her was to inherit all her riches and be in control of the oil trade. hrm. was gonna attend another wedding but could not find anything to wear except a long grey dress with white round collars but it looked too grade school but i didn't really have much choice. weddings and bickers. not a surprise to be honest. :

music has been sassy fuzzy girl pop!
hurrah!

: was caught throwing away my cigarette butt by dad. he said there was no need to hide. and he took out his pack of sampoerna and lit up a stick and we both inhaled together. (how i wish that would actually happen in the real life!) met up with a college friend (from perth) and the hotel he was staying at resembled a building that appeared in another dream. next scene, i was purchasing the holy e-can at the pharmacy and the pharmacist asked me why was there a sudden need for the 'drug'. i met my younger cousin at the hawker centre  :

music has been interpol and the smart e's (thanx one-ster!).

trip 03.01.2004
at the 'secret place' in singapore
--->
01. lights. coloured dots. and there was laughter from the right hand side. stretched out laughter. he heard it too on his trip. now that was pretty fuckin' freaky and scary. as we both did it on separate occasions.
02. more coloured dots. flashing purple and shadows. and i saw the clouds being pulled backwards. and there was an outline of a man's face between the trees on the left hand side.
03. sirens. ambulance siren on the right. police car siren on the left. let's go synchronous. and at the back of my head, my voice repeatedly mumbled 'someone's gonna die. someone's gonna die. someone's gonna die.' and minutes later after the trip, an ambulance car rode by. i told him that if a police car went by i would fuckin' scream. but it didn't happen and my lungs were saved. sort of.
<--- some dreams

: (i) during the ten minute power nap on monday morning. 05.01.04. the devil said to me, "i am walking behind you. i am walking beside you. i am walking with you. and now * i am going right through you..." and i saw him and he was a crimson red bat with fangs and sharp jagged wings.
(ii) and on the night of 05.01.04 - i went over to a-ha's apartment. ya know, a-ha? take on me? take me on? yeah well, i was supposed to cook pasta for them but apparently there was nothing in the kitchen except potatoes and apparently morten harket (or however you spell his name) and his girlfriend eats boiled potatoes every day cos morten can't cook. likesay what? and i wasn't in the mood to go to the supermarket.
(iii) nap on tuesday afternoon 06.01.04. nelly and fifty cent were bickering and this happened while i was flicking through a glossy coloured magazine and it was like watching an animation right before my eyes. :