: (i) was trying on a pair of  beige/cream slip-ons. they were just a bit too big for me and i decided not to buy them. saw another pair of similar coloured shoes that i knew would fit me perfectly but they were rather expensive. i did tell myself i would return some day for that pair. :

: (ii) at a hairdressing salon and i told the stylist to chop off my locks. the fringe was very spock-ish. the back was quite uneven. and when i looked into the mirror, she held my hair tightly and snipped off in one cut. :

: (iii) went from one jewellery shop to another trying to sell off stuff that once meant the world to me. but they said it was not possible but if i wanted, they could look after it. like a bank. :

there are holes in the walls.
cracks on the floor.
scratches and scrapes and bruises galore.

how a monument was adorned.
is adorned no more.

crumbles and pieces
shatter and pour.

washed up against the surface.

scars, wounds and  remnants
of an unforeseen war.

they remain. and remain. right to the core.

xox

: went to new zealand and had to chaperone three fifteen-year old boys who only talked about automobiles and one of them had three legs. :

: went to rome with miss y. and we traipsed around the cobbled streets, in and out every single second-hand bookstore. there was one that sold really beautiful postcards and i was interested in a huge leather-bound book that documented the different types of postcards throughout the years. it was off my budget though. i think it was 65euro but in the dream, it converted as 300singapore dollars. i looked across the street and it was Japan. and there i saw my beloved younger sister and her husband dancing with people dressed up as neko cats. tried to get a picture but i failed. :

we are walking on shaky grounds, you and i.

i will walk across steadily, without fear, to greener pastures.
my journey will hurt but the pain is only temporal.

are you going to do the same?

or are you just going to falter, like a flower that will only survive when watered...

xox