many dreams last night. none i can remember but one where i was trying to escape from the window of a toilet and the window had very old frosted glass panes. so i had to slide one pane at a time and when i did manage to escape (from villains of marvel comics) i did not have to fall to the ground but instead walk across to the other room and walk out the entrance of the house and wait for the elevator. nonsense.

i've been ill. what else is new?

need to see the beach again.
maybe that will happen soon.

more surprises to come in the following days.

they should be good.

music has been a bore. someone make me a mixcd or recommend me stuff. please.

: went to plastiqueusa's house and there were lots of turnings and pillars. the atmosphere was rather strange. and i wanted to check out the fish but i saw no traces of fishtanks. a while later she came over and things were okay until she asked you whether you wanted to go for some wine party and it was on her and i walked out without saying goodbye to anyone. before i left though, plastiqueusa told me to get the keys behind the door and keep it. as he lived on a high level, naturally one would take the elevators but no. i went down the stairs and the lighting was rather dim. :

: .in search of cigarettes because i do not like dunhill lights. a nearby coffeeshop did not carry sampoerna and they had pall mall menthols which i didn't mind but it was 15$ and i said no, forget it. then we walked further up to a 7-11 and i could get sampoerna menthols from the vending machine inside the store. and it was 1.60$. :

: saw a turtle tied up in strings and elevated into the air and it was spun around several times. it was not the circus but in a strange hall in a strange building. :

some nights ago i dreamt of body mutilation and saw people carve their arms out with swords.

happy eid mubarak to all muslims.

lists are fun.

shopping lists, to do lists, they are all fun.

here's my current dream possessions lists:

ps2 (to be shared with tjp)

it is vital for every kid who knows how to operate a television and a computer. it is essential for every kid who still lives with their parents after age 21 and lack social skills. very very important.

a lightsaber

miracles happen all the time. i will speak no further.

adidas embroidered maryjanes.

most girls like shoes. i am most girls. sometimes.



flight tickets to france for next month would be good too. but first i need to see a proper beach with proper sand and sea. and that better happen in two days. uh huh.

: was being possessed and so was another child. i saw possessed me and mother and the other child with his mom and there was a knife between us and i was waiting for mother to stab me. :

and then i was awoken by a text message.

there are no more photographs on my wall.
because i choose not to remember anymore.

we unite with our hearts.
not with our interests nor vices, you stupid fuckin idiots.

: in a town where most of the population were blind or had one eye only. managed to get out of there quick and i was carrying lulu at the same time. i nearly lost her from my grip but all was fine and when we got to the car, the seats had turned to grass. :



...hark the herald angels sing...

: kept washing my face over and over again. :



there is something strange in the air.

cannot wait to be out of here by the 15th.

: inventing food again. those m&m donuts looked good. :

: went to see the locust twice on two consecutive days. the first gig the crowd was hysterical and i got knocked on the shoulders and the entire show was really tight. the latter, the crowd was more subdued and i was able to be right in front and sit on top of a piano. pearson was not wearing the typical masked outfit but only a ski mask, a beanie, an old jacket, tattered pants and wellington boots. i brought my camera but was not in the mood to take photos. later on they played struggle's "war #1" and even covered black cat #13. :

this is not the first time i've dreamt of going to see the locust and not being in the mood to take photos. i doubt there's any psychological reasons behind it really.

some nights ago i dreamt of a super awesome sandwich bar and had a super awesome croissant with amazing amounts of stuffing. it rocked.

got my salad.

now i need cottage cheese.