nervous nurses

there is 

far too much

anxiety 

paranoia 

and 

lunacy. 

instability. 

refracting through these mirrors. 

a couple of steps back

and look not directly

into them. 

you will be fine.

you will be okay. 

ikhlas

in sickness

and in health

for better 

or worse

when transparency

is scheduled around convenience

around motives 

and gains and benefits

when honesty 

and upfront responses

are strategised accordingly 

when just 'being'

is now a myth

a legend a fairytale 

echo those vows

let them sink through your skin

drown in your blood

and encompass your soul 

sincerity

sin.cerity

your move. 

choose your adventure. 

attention appetition

look at you

basking in your self-made glory 

riding on another's back 

guised in such grandeur 

so resplendent

so magnifique 

indeed, this is what you deserve 

or what you think you deserve 

from your magnified deception 

champion of champions

you win hands down 

as there was never a competition in the first place

except 

only in your head. 

dark side dilemmas

this challenge 

this struggle 

it still lurks and lingers

silently residing

and then surfaces 

overshadowing

overwhelming

overpowering

deafening deafening 

with its version of propagation 

crushing 

this constant-mending 

exhausting, it is so 

to be denied 

to be patronized

to swallow this supposed positive 

courtesy 

only to be condemned 

irrational. 

sly salutations

so maybe you've been here. 

or maybe this is your first visit. 

through mutual channels

and connections. 

so how do you do? 

and how do you do again. 

feel free to wonder

and wander to your heart's content. 

 

--- 

still, you will never get the idea 

nor the picture 

and decipher.

for this is just a show. 

like any other. 

like you.